A THOUSAND MILES IS TOO MUCH

A thousand miles seems like forever
     when you're that far away
     from my arms and from my heart,
     beating silently here without you.
Driving for a day with no sleep
     seems a minute price to pay
     to see you smile at me again,
     and to be beside you.
Spending hundreds to hear your voice
     is insanity to those around me
     who don't understand this,
     this yearning I feel for you.
A thousand miles is like forever
     because you're that far away
     from my soul and from my love,
     barely breathing here without you.

ALBINO LOVE

 

forever and a day
brings velvet pain
and albino love,
teasing me out of Eden
with a silver tongue
that laps up my blood,
an ebony wine
devouring my soul.
this darkened spirit
rips cobalt petals
from roses of silken gold.
reflections reveal
the illusioned self,
hidden so transparently
within an aching heart
that yearns for
the unattainable.

ART TALK

Descend upon clouds of concrete mass and angels' wings.
Speak through me your thoughts of spectral range.
Forgo dreams of luxurious bath and sinful taste
While I indulge in my own.
Rise onto a marble pedestal of perfect light
Imagined onto a single sheet of wrought iron cold
Shed putrid tears onto crimson floors
While I selfishly shed mine.
Create time's velocity and indefinite space
Share bullshit theories of existence's life
Present yourself in harsh, steel honesty
While I hide my soul.

AS DO WE

Propel infinity's state of perfection
Onto a dimly lit Vancouver street
On the West End where the rich sit warmly
As do we.
Put asunder polyptych cobalt tides
That wash up a jagged beach in Kits
Where lovers walk and speak gentle words
As do we.
Present to us monotony's eve
Put here in this dark East End alley
Which shelters pains and sufferings
As do we.
Plummet down a rigid darkness
Walking lonely in Veridian forests
Into an eternity of endless days
As do we.

LOVE HAS LEFT US

We have parted, and said goodbye
For love has left us.

We shall never, be together
For there's no love within us.

We shall not live, for all of eternity
For love can't keep us alive.

We shall be fearful, not tall and strong
For love can't protect us.

Never shall we stand, side by side
For love can't keep us standing.

We shall not share our lives together
For love can't bond us.

We have parted, and said goodbye
For love has left us.

LOVE IS WITH US

We shall not part, nor say goodbye,
For love is with us.

We shall forever, be together,
For there's love within us.

We shall live, for all of eternity,
For love will keep us alive.

We shall be fearless, stand tall and strong,
For love will protect us.

Forever we stand, side by side,
For love will keep us standing.

We shall share, our lives together,
For love will bond us.

We shall not part, nor say goodbye,
For love is with us.

PAINTING THESE WORDS

Confusion, like a cold wash of red and orange acrylic
sweeps over my life, a piece of 140 pound watercolour paper.
Depression engulfs my every thought and every memory
that I've dug up from deep within the nooks and crannies of my brain.
Wonderment catches my soul and pounds into my flesh
because I can't find the answers to my infinite questions and pains.
What have I done to deserve this lonely state
where I sleep alone night after night dreaming of the impossible?
Why have the fates cut my strings so short and with no leeway?
Am I really so intolerable that life would be unfair to only me?
What can I do to convince some celestial being that I am worthy
of love and happiness and peace that everyone else has possessed?
Return it, I don't want the wash of red and orange acrylic
that swept over my life on my piece of 140 pound watercolour paper.
Rip it from my every thought and every memory because I can't
dig up any more from deep within the nooks and crannies of my brain.
Tear it loose from my soul and from within my flesh
because I need the answers to my infinite questions to heal my pains.

POEM

i miss your hands

RIGHT HERE BESIDE ME

sitting here thinking of you
my voice cracks
my hands shake
because you are not here beside me
living life's long lost days
right here beside me.

how am i to take giant steps
without you here
to catch me
when i fall into whose arms
if yours are not right here
if you are not right here
right here beside me.

SIVAD

Drowning into
A sea of lonely days
Vexing my heart and soul
I seek the garden of
Secret lust.

A
warm tear
runs slowly down
my cheek to meet the
mouth that kissed your
lips that caused the
tear to escape in
the first place

THIS CARBON RAPE

Carry me into oblivion's days
while I am here in solitude
angst-ridden and heart-broken
for life is not a crimson kiss
but a carbon rape.

WHERE BACTERIA LIES STAGNANT

my mind's a vortex of violent thoughts
when the reaper's come to find me
curled up in the corner of my brain
where ideas spring forth from oblivion
into your eyes of unearthly brown.
my mouth's a wet pool of amino acids
where bacteria lies stagnant
awaiting your input into lonely days
and curdling up inside me
drowned in your smell of insanity.
my soul's a hurricane of recycled bottles
broken into infinite jagged pieces
and strewn all over burned prairie grass
where once there were mountains
of desire which came from only you.

YELLOW OCHRE SKIES

My heart sails lonely
Into your every thought
Of midnight blue and
Yellow ochre skies.
Frozen teardrops
Beaten from my eyes
All deepest crimson
From sienna shades.
My wings mourn sadly
For their loss
Of ebony love and
Veridian spirits.
Crying notes are calling
Please come back
To my violet dreams
And indigo days.

 

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